[she's got her face buried in a pillow and even if she's still wearing her bunny kigu, she's got a blanket over that like she's trying to hide herself from the world? maybe because she wishes she could ACTUALLY do it.
but there's a choking noise and the crying abruptly stops (or at least like, there's an attempt that's clearly not working because a couple of sobs sneak through anyway).
maybe if she's quiet enough he'll just go back to bed—]
[THIS IS TERRORISM. She tries not to cry more, and to hold it back, but she just... bursts into tears again, a fresh wave of just inconsolable crying that she can't control.]
How? Don't I make it worse!? I'm always miserable, it's gotta be a problem—
... You... I—I let you down, right? By making you feel like you let me down? You couldn't. Ever. And that you feel like you're... responsible for it... and... like it's your fault if something happens to me and it's not, but it's still because of me—
[she's burying her face back in the pillow, and her next words are muffled]
[ he's a little quiet, trying to figure out what to say. he... really scared her. he didn't think about it-- his head felt so strange, but now that she's brought it up, that same anxiety that had been gripping his heart comes back.
it honestly takes a minute for him to even respond. ]
I'm sorry... I said some really hurtful things, and I didn't even realize it. I don't think you've let me down at all, and I don't want you to think you did.
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he feels a little more normal, wearing what he'd usually wear to bed in scarabia but... ]
Ruby...?
[ at least, that doesn't sound like Marcille... ]
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but there's a choking noise and the crying abruptly stops (or at least like, there's an attempt that's clearly not working because a couple of sobs sneak through anyway).
maybe if she's quiet enough he'll just go back to bed—]
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You don't have to be alone, you know...
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You couldn't do that!!
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But your blot—
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[ he considers that one, ]
I guess that’s true…
[ after watching Jamil and Vil overblot… but still, he pulls her closer ]
But I feel better when my Ruby is near me!!!
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How? Don't I make it worse!? I'm always miserable, it's gotta be a problem—
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Are you…? I don’t think so… but right now… something really terrible happened to us. So maybe it feels even worse because of that…
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I'm a problem.
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[ he blinks, and then he shifts to look down at her ]
Isn’t it normal to worry about the people you care about…?
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No one's ever worried about me. They've only ever—said it's a problem... so it's... gotta be one, right?
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He doesn’t think so. He wants her to have a long, happy life. And she can’t do that if she bottles everything in, can she? ]
It’s definitely not.
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Mother always said it did.
[Notable difference in terms used, it's not "mama" like she does for Ai.]
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[ he notices but also, doesn’t quite get it ]
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Your past life... Sarina.
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So... I'm sorry. I'm just... always a problem. For wanting too much. Not thinking about you. I stopped being careful. I shouldn't have.
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[ ... there's something cold in his chest ]
What do you mean...?
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[she's burying her face back in the pillow, and her next words are muffled]
I need... to get better...
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[ he's a little quiet, trying to figure out what to say. he... really scared her. he didn't think about it-- his head felt so strange, but now that she's brought it up, that same anxiety that had been gripping his heart comes back.
it honestly takes a minute for him to even respond. ]
I'm sorry... I said some really hurtful things, and I didn't even realize it. I don't think you've let me down at all, and I don't want you to think you did.
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But... I don't want you to think you can't...
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