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[goldencharms]

this is kalim pls lv a msg

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Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ no, he's good at finding where crying is coming from, and she will feel his weight as he sits next to her, and leans against her ]

You don't have to be alone, you know...

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

... Don't wanna—[a sob, followed by a wheezy breath as she tries to draw some air back in]—bother you.

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ he turns to wrap his arms around her blanket covered form, and nuzzles her ]

You couldn't do that!!

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

[She doesn't make a move to get away, but the shivering and trembling are incredibly apparent.]

But your blot—

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

I’m not using magic!! Just hugs.

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

L—Leona said feelings... matter... and I don't—wa-want you to feel bad.

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

Eh…?

[ he considers that one, ]

I guess that’s true…

[ after watching Jamil and Vil overblot… but still, he pulls her closer ]

But I feel better when my Ruby is near me!!!

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

[THIS IS TERRORISM. She tries not to cry more, and to hold it back, but she just... bursts into tears again, a fresh wave of just inconsolable crying that she can't control.]

How? Don't I make it worse!? I'm always miserable, it's gotta be a problem—

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ that wasn’t what he was expecting at all, but also, he doesn’t pull away ]

Are you…? I don’t think so… but right now… something really terrible happened to us. So maybe it feels even worse because of that…

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

Then how about all the times I make you worry?? I know that happens, I—I'm even doing it right now, right?

I'm a problem.

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

Eh…?

[ he blinks, and then he shifts to look down at her ]

Isn’t it normal to worry about the people you care about…?

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

I—I guess, but...

No one's ever worried about me. They've only ever—said it's a problem... so it's... gotta be one, right?

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ oh, is it a problem..? He frowns.

He doesn’t think so. He wants her to have a long, happy life. And she can’t do that if she bottles everything in, can she? ]

It’s definitely not.

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

[hey shouldn't you think that about yourself, kalim]

Mother always said it did.

[Notable difference in terms used, it's not "mama" like she does for Ai.]

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

Mother…?

[ he notices but also, doesn’t quite get it ]

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

When I was sick. Not mama.

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

... OH!

Your past life... Sarina.

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

... Yeah.

So... I'm sorry. I'm just... always a problem. For wanting too much. Not thinking about you. I stopped being careful. I shouldn't have.

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

Not thinking about me...??

[ ... there's something cold in his chest ]

What do you mean...?

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

... You... I—I let you down, right? By making you feel like you let me down? You couldn't. Ever. And that you feel like you're... responsible for it... and... like it's your fault if something happens to me and it's not, but it's still because of me—

[she's burying her face back in the pillow, and her next words are muffled]

I need... to get better...

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

...

[ he's a little quiet, trying to figure out what to say. he... really scared her. he didn't think about it-- his head felt so strange, but now that she's brought it up, that same anxiety that had been gripping his heart comes back.

it honestly takes a minute for him to even respond. ]

I'm sorry... I said some really hurtful things, and I didn't even realize it. I don't think you've let me down at all, and I don't want you to think you did.

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

—No! It's—... I was happy you were finally saying something... because you don't...

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ he feels-- so dizzy, and so exhausted, and he leans against her ]

But... I don't want you to think you can't...

Re: day 36, very late

[aididitmyway]

I... used to handle it before... it's how I handled everything before I got here.

[there's... a rustling noise, but she's mostly just shifting the blanket and position so that she can pull kalim under the blanket]

Re: day 36, very late

[goldencharms]

[ it takes him a moment, but he crawls under the blanket with her... ]

But you were so open about it here...