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[goldencharms]

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Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Oh... Why?

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

Yesterday was pretty bad, wasn't it?

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Well... Yeah...

[ he blinks and pushes himself up, then turns. ]

So, it's because you're sad...?

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

It's way more than just sad.

Tired. Frustrated. Sad. A little hopeless sometimes...

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Do you feel hopeless now…?

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

Kinda.

It just feels like we're always gonna be stuck here.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

... Yeah, I guess it does... I still don't know anything about how we can go home but... It's not all bad.

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

I know there aren't bad things.

It just... gets overwhelming sometimes.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Especially after a bad game...?

[ said softly, just trying to understand ]

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

Yeah.

Especially after a bad game. Especially after one where something happens to us.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Oh...

[ he reaches out to stroke her hair ]

That makes a lot of sense... A lot happened and... well, dying's awful...

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

I tried so hard to save you.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Huh? Save me?

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

From the zombie? I didn't want you to die.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Right.

[ a pause, and then a sort of, uncertain? laugh ]

Ahahaha...

And I thought I was trying to save you...!

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

... I guess we were trying to save each other, then.

I'm sorry I couldn't.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

It's okay. You were doing your best, right...? It's hard enough to look after yourself in a game like that...

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

I just! Hate that we can try so hard and still get totally ruined, and still die, and still have to deal with punishments if we lose and—

... I'm glad we don't have to this time. But...

[she starts to curl into a ball.]

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Yeah...

[ he inhales, and puts an arm around her ]

That isn't fair. I wish no one had to deal with it. Even now, I feel guilty...

Mmm, or maybe guilty isn't the right word.

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

... What do you mean?

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Umm...

[ he's thinking about it for a moment, clearly struggling with putting the thoughts to words ]

Everyone suffered... It just-- feels wrong that sometimes people get lucky and don't have to deal with any effects? Like.

That isn't how it should be.

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

[she shakes her head]

It's not how it should be. But it's not like I want to deal with punishments, either.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

I know, I know!

[ he sighs softly ]

I’m glad that you don’t, not this time.

Re: Day 52

[aididitmyway]

I'm glad you don't, either.

Ugh. Just another stupid thing about this stupid place.

Re: Day 52

[goldencharms]

Another thing…?

[ he almost immediately forgets about the side effects conversation ]