[It's deeply, viscerally wrong in ways he doesn't have words for; he wants to cling to Kalim's insubstantial form as much as he wants to recoil, scream at him as much as he wants to be violently ill. It makes his skin crawl with unease--he shouldn't have found out this way. His phone should have been ringing non-stop from the moment something happened. He shouldn't be dealing with this alone, let alone have time to feel this way--he should be in crisis control mode, frantically coordinating a return trip right now.
Kalim shouldn't be here either--even as a ghost, is it really so quick to get halfway around the world, unless he'd been murdered mere minutes or hours after he'd left him in the hands of the rest of the servants? What had the rest of the household been doing, to let him die so easily? Shouldn't he still be in shock as he confronts his new status, or at least cooperating with local authorities so his murder can be investigated? They have mages in law enforcement for a reason--it's much easier to find clues and suspects alike, if the victim's spirit themselves can provide a statement.
Why..... why is nobody here for them, except each other? Kalim has a whole estate full of people who love him. He himself should have been struggling with swarms of fellow tourists, people who have no idea who he is, let alone what his social status is. This trip was supposed to be liberating, not haunting. It's just..... impossible.
The more desperately he wants to deny it all, the more reasons he finds to do so. The world around them wavers and distorts like a mirage, steadily growing darker and colder, less substantial and real as he violently rejects the very premise it's built on. He absolutely refuses to stay in such a horrible place; it's time to go home. It's time to wake up.]
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[It's deeply, viscerally wrong in ways he doesn't have words for; he wants to cling to Kalim's insubstantial form as much as he wants to recoil, scream at him as much as he wants to be violently ill. It makes his skin crawl with unease--he shouldn't have found out this way. His phone should have been ringing non-stop from the moment something happened. He shouldn't be dealing with this alone, let alone have time to feel this way--he should be in crisis control mode, frantically coordinating a return trip right now.
Kalim shouldn't be here either--even as a ghost, is it really so quick to get halfway around the world, unless he'd been murdered mere minutes or hours after he'd left him in the hands of the rest of the servants? What had the rest of the household been doing, to let him die so easily? Shouldn't he still be in shock as he confronts his new status, or at least cooperating with local authorities so his murder can be investigated? They have mages in law enforcement for a reason--it's much easier to find clues and suspects alike, if the victim's spirit themselves can provide a statement.
Why..... why is nobody here for them, except each other? Kalim has a whole estate full of people who love him. He himself should have been struggling with swarms of fellow tourists, people who have no idea who he is, let alone what his social status is. This trip was supposed to be liberating, not haunting. It's just..... impossible.
The more desperately he wants to deny it all, the more reasons he finds to do so. The world around them wavers and distorts like a mirage, steadily growing darker and colder, less substantial and real as he violently rejects the very premise it's built on. He absolutely refuses to stay in such a horrible place; it's time to go home. It's time to wake up.]
This is just a nightmare! That's all!